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I guess,	I just hate the way i feel

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Saturday, May 20, 2006

No poetry, just thoughts...

I think I should be much happier than I am now. I just completed something big, and people traveled miles and miles just to see me walk across the stage and take the diploma. but the ceremony was long and boring, and I had to force myself to smile. Maybe it hasn't set in yet... But for a reason i'm not sure of I'm simply not happy. I have no idea why. I know I should be, I have no reason not to be. Maybe it's the idea of all this change happening, maybe it scares me a little bit. Everyone's getting older and moving on, and I think it scares the bejeezus out of me. I'm actually an alum, and I don't know what to do with myself. It's not fair to everyone else that I'm not even excited about it. I've always thought of myself as adaptable, and i've been ready to take on change. Apparently, I'm not exactly as flexible as I thought.

But i'm going to be okay, everything's just going to be fine.

That's what I tell myself at least.

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Sunday, April 02, 2006

	i should probably get back to writing poetry...because i am going to burst.
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Thursday, March 09, 2006

	somewhere between then and now, i've become "the saddest one I know"
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Monday, October 17, 2005

The Consequences of Being Apathetic

You're sitting here
You seem to be the most relaxed
Without a care you blankly stare
For a moment it's you I envy
If only I'd be capable
Of dodging life without lifting a finger.

But it's then my mind propels
To the future it impels
Far from now and here
It's then I see the fear

You're standing there
Not knowing what to do
Lacking the ability to pull through
Because you never trained yourself to

Am I now supposed to sympathize?
You have reaped what you sow
So instead I roll my eyes
You've become the saddest one I know.

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Vicious Cycle

why do i let you continue to take my heart?

without making you take to heart what i've said

are you insistent on us being apart?

this relationship mistaken for dead

so I continue doing my job...

making the most all along

and I continue to ignore the throb

living the most like nothing is wrong

sitting here with nothing better to do,

mind finally shutting out what's left

again i retreat to what i only knew

and reach my hands out, forgiving you

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